I have often thought that I needed to wait until I reached a certain level of “social class” or “status” to do the things that bring me joy, but as of late, I realized that the “right moment” I am looking for isn’t coming. That moment is now, and I am no longer waiting for the right moment to DO.

I have considered myself an author for many years, but this was a silent thought in my head until now. It’s not as if I’ve published in Forbes or released a book (yet), so why would I call myself an author? Well, guess what…I am an author, and the beauty is, so are YOU. We are all authors of our lives and can play an active role in developing our stories.

The current story I am writing for myself is rediscovering what it means to be me, use my voice, choose joy, take up space, and say yes to life even when times are hard. I am so proud of myself for getting here!

When I lost my mom two years ago, my world collapsed and stopped making sense. The bond I had with her was indescribable. She was not just my mother but my best friend. I would joke around and tell her that even if my existing friendships with my close friends would end, I would be okay because I knew I had her in my life, and that’s all I needed. Though I have played off this statement as a joke, I think we both knew I was serious each time.

With her physical absence, I have had to rediscover myself through my own lens. Through this rediscovery, I have also realized how much I have stopped myself from living fully because of seeking external validation from others. As a means to break free from this pattern, I’ve committed to my personal list called “why not,” and creating a newsletter is one of the items off this list.

I intend to use this monthly newsletter as a space for self-reflection and exploring my journey as I navigate how I want to show up in my present Ph.D. program, personal life, and in the world. I am also inviting you to do the same.

Until next time, I leave you with the thought below:

What is one thing you have rediscovered about yourself? Write it down or say it to yourself.

Resources:

• What is self-reflection? Why is self-reflection important?

• Don’t Underestimate the Power of Self-Reflection